i really. Really. REALLY. REALLY don't like crowds. especially the ones in orchard road.
they make all the bad traits of my conscious surface... the invisible curses that hang above my head when people push past you in the mrt even though you're getting off the same stupid stop as they are... the weird getups that singaporeans don.. even the loud conversation this lady next to me had on the phone this early morning when i sat in the mrt irked me.... i could nearly piece together the whole drama of her current situation.. some good friend who went one step too far or something along those lines.

sigh. maybe it's just the fact that i woke at 6.45 am this morning, and waited for 40 minutes in toa payoh terminal. i HATE waking up early. one of the worst things in the world. and couldn't doze off cos' i'd imbibed brand's chicken essence with ginseng, practically the only thing that can keep me awake for about 3 hours. even better than double shot espresso. that, and the problem of not being able to find a pair of shoes for new year. sigh... sometimes i feel downright silly, and guilty buying new clothes when others are glad enough to have just a few shirts for variety. oh well. it's just a good thing that i don't like shopping for shoes and bags then. all the sequins and stitches and needless ornaments just seem like such frivolity. i even saw a white-and-red shoe with a bunch of grapes and a pair of cherries hanging off a strap. and my mom suggested i buy it. yipes. no way.

anyway. i'm just glad that today's taekwondo grading's over.... i let my brain takeover automatic once the pattern started and i mistook zero thrust for forward command (i always wonder who came up with those terms anyway)... yikes friends who were watching saw me bungle up.... but i hope the examiner was busy writing a 'double' on my grading card haha..... dream on.

and i'm off to play gunbound. yeah. gail's got me hooked. the little gal's just too cute... and i really wanna buy something for her... haha sounds quite nuts. don't worry i don't play for hours on end. and if you wanna add me... give me your nick and real name at the comment box down there *points to tranquil lake* and noone's yet commented on the new photos i've put up... hey where's everybody???