"perceiving life as a perpetual film."

sitting here beside kim during our computing lecture, not paying attention to what seems suspiciously like the stuff i used to struggle with back in the dreary days of economics and math. the nash equilibrium? heck it already, why can't we all just let life be, and not try to figure out if we can plot human behaviour using a computer programme. hand up your work on floppy disks... pfffft. floppy disks are SO last century.

although i DO have an idea that i just posited to kim, for our computing project anyways (for which NONE of the guys are showing their faces, much less to say even replying our emailed pleas to meet for the bloody FIRST discussion). let's plot lecture behaviour! how long the students can be bothered to listen till they want to leave/fall asleep/buy a snack/go online and blog just like i'm doing. and when the number of students leave/fall asleep et cetera, the morale of the lecturer drops and he begins to talk even more gibberish than he already is doing. it's a lose-lose situation, folks. to hell with the one-dimensional cellular automaton thingy. what i'm i DOING in the science faculty anyways?? the very air itself is fraught with heavy oppression.

my ex-colleague is emailing me from the office to come celebrate oktoberfest this coming friday at his place... one of those chinatown walkups. tres cool. and while i complain about the taxi fare to him, he reminds me that there's gonna be free (!!) beer and wine which will exceed the cost of my taxi fare, something i cannot argue with, actually. any takers? ishak will probably hound me to bring him but he doesn't know the link to my blog anyhoo. hehe. besides, he'll embarrass me. eeeks don't tell him i said that.

i managed to watch love actually yesterday. i figure my life's somewhat like those things that don't work out (look at karl and sarah) because family always gets in the way and i'm too darned good at following the so-called RIGHT priorities. somebody SCHtOP me from evaluating everything and deciding that certain situations will not go down well on celluloid (remember that i perceive my reality as perpetual film, thus leading to thoughts such as but the breakup will be horrible!).. perhaps i'll go wild during exchange, and will the darned university hurry up and reply?? need to start saving up if i really do decide to backpack across america in june/july. any contributors to the "help-hannah-see-more-of-creation" fund are gladly welcomed. i was just thinking the other day about how scattered the people i know are, and realised that there'll come a time when we'll all really KNOW people in each country, each city. we singaporeans are spreading ourselves far and wide. is that a good thing? as far as i'm concerned.. i think nationality is losing its significance, especially ever since the borders became more permeable with the introduction of fast flight. i can't wait to be one of those people overseas. my turn WILL come, i know it.