"perceiving life as a perpetual film."

and the dust gathers so quickly upon the table

i think i must be shedding skin at least five times faster than the average person.. i know not why the desk gains a fine layer of dust every day or so. it's frightful.. kinda like that neologism (word for newly-coined words) in Androids, the kipple-ization of my room. i wipe the dust away only to have it return vengefully the next day. i wonder what it'll be like if i'm gone... perhaps the dust will follow me wherever i go, like poor pig pen XD. in any case, i need a personal maid. french, preferably. goodness knows i need a makeover. hahaaa.

meanwhile. congratulations kim for passing your driving! welcome to the club! now we just have to wheedle our parents into letting us have the car more often.. so far i've just been driving around the vicinity of home, school and church, which isn't a very big radius actually.

anyways. i managed to watch a complete movie with both parents tonight.. while both boys were sleeping peacefully. weird, considering if it's a film that my dad likes watching (aka action) my mom will go into the kitchen and busy herself with chores, while if it's a film my mom likes watching (like the classics) it'll be my dad's early night in to bed. that's why, when both stuck it out with me on the sofa till the end of notting hill i felt quite pleasantly surprised. perhaps it's because it may be impending that i'll be gone for awhile, therefore no more shirking about when i'm around and spending leisure time. hmm. i don't know, but romantic comedies, i still feel bitter about their predictable happy endings. classic hollywood cinema. but this time i'm quite satisfied with the british wit flying about, their accents always make me wistful for perfect english. do people really speak like that way over there in foggy england? convolutedly, with elaborate connotations that really mean crude things? haha. tanya, if you see this, please enlighten me.

i henceforth shall aspire to be impressively happy.

if only that were true. reminds me, today i was ushering for dick lee's exxonmobil concert, and despite the several negative comments many people (including myself i admit) have made about him, he truly is a good performer, able to engage the audience well. and he does have a good singing voice, i suppose which is the fruit of years of training, the bloke is 48 years old for goodness' sake. i shall try to learn to get rid of the bad stuff quick, like he advised which was the secret of his youthful looks. hmmm. people, try to smile downwards? haha. then you'd end up like my imagined version of lady bracknell in The Importance of Being Earnest.

my premium membership at the library was apparently of an expired state, and i didn't realise exactly HOW MUCH time has actually passed by. this is the THIRD time i'm paying for the premium membership, for goodness' sake! it's the TENTH month of 2004, i can barely remember anything, it seems like the transition from one university year to another takes place on a normal january to december basis, where did the time go? i think i'm speaking under the influence of Molloy now, how terrible, run-on sentences are. i was talking to joseph the other day on msn and i told him i speak far more often with him than with any other church member now. i wonder why. are things getting too distant between all of us? even now i feel the fragmentation more than ever. somehow i can't connect with you all anymore. and i feel noone's going to bother to initiate the reconciliation. ah well. it's better this way perhaps, to move on. i don't know what i'd say to you either. there's nothing much to say.

i had my taekwondo grading last sunday with gail and gang, i believe gail and i did well despite a little hiccup where our (literally) 360 degrees pattern collided and i had to wait for the guy beside me to turn to the right. to celebrate a successful grading gail amy and i went on a MEGA shopping spree... spent money i ought not to have spent, and on cutting all the price tags last night to send the clothes into the wash i realise that they're all grey toned.. indicative of my general mood perhaps? i really don't know.

off to study french i go. toujours beaucoup devoirs, non? sooks when you start french i can practice it with you! hehe ;P