"perceiving life as a perpetual film."

shomething's missing

josh and i are sitting at the dining table in the living room watching just for laughs... our parents have left on a pre-valentine's day dinner together simply because the actual day itself presents problems of the Crowded Restaurants and Hiked-up Prices variety. joshy didn't know that our parents were going for a private date and as usual started up with his whining complaints regarding me taking care of him at home because he says i'll shut him out of my room and not let him in - basically, he just wants to follow my parents out for dinner instead of eating chicken rice like we're doing now.

so just now we had a talk that goes like this -

"JOSH! come here."
"whaaaaat" (he toddles over)
"do you have a girlfriend?"
"no"
"does daddy have a girlfriend?"
"yes"
"who?"
"mommy"
"so they're going out now as boyfriend and girlfriend"
"they never tell me what!"
"i'm telling you now, and would you bring me along if you were going out with your girlfriend?"
"no, but you have a boyfriend what."
"i don't have!"
"you surely have one lah."

and then, by the time he'd come round to the fact that we just have to stay at home alone tonight together, we head out to the living room where my mom's decked out and my dad's in a comfortable golf polo and i push him to go change into a proper shirt. mom's acting a little scared because she doesn't know if he's going to bring her to some non-aircon place or not, like a hawker centre or something. josh seems to think it's really going to be a hawker centre, which sparks off a session of me chasing him about while trying to ingrain the notion that if you want to impress a girl on a date, at least on valentine's day, NOT to bring her to a hawker centre. horrors.

that's basically all the valentine's day hype that i'm going to get :) staying at home tomorrow i think, unless i'm inclined to go out alone - nahhh. abel says he's going to e-date me if we both happen to be online tomorrow night. haha - t'is greatly appreciated :) on going to mod crit class with ol' james today, he said i give off the feeling that i'm attached, else he'd have asked me out before. HAHA, right.. kidder. maybe i've given that vibe off my entire life, explains my permanent flying solo status, no? maybe i just have to go and hit on someone for them to realise i'm available.*winks*

oh yeah, thanks darlings all who came to listen last wednesday for my forum performance - silly abel msns me from denmark saying his friend wants to marry me after hearing my singing - and then tells me it's a SHE. hahaa... talk about setting my hopes up and then dashing them :) oh wells. time to start mega-studying. already i can feel my productivity levels increasing tenfold...