something has changed within me
i understand myself better now. i also see the future, and beyond it, should heaven exist. i see the sins yet to be committed, that i will pay for in tears, perhaps not even my own. perhaps that may make it more painful.
but life is a gift and things past cannot be retracted nor retraced, the steps taken and things touched cannot be moved back. i don't regret anything in this life, except maybe the wrong school choice when i was 16 and very much stupid and rebellious.
how can you hate change? it's usually for the better. this way, you step into a new life with eyes wide open.
wonderful, breathless, amazing reality and the harshness of hitting the earth once more.
juice.susceptible had time to talk trash at 12:44 AM